Let It Go & Move On

Exactly three months ago, my relationship ended. 

It has been three months. It's not a very long period, it's not short either. 

I have COMPLETELY let go of this relationship, I think. 

I don't know how I did it. I just did. I used to think that I might take forever to let go of this relationship as I have loved so hard, so deep for this person. However I did it in a shorter time I thought I need. 

A friend told me, "You are so strong! How can you did that?"

I seriously got no idea. 

I realize I let him go, when I don't think about him anymore. When I am in sorrow or joy, he's no longer the person that comes to my mind first anymore. 

I realize I let him go, when I don't feel anything when I saw his name pop-up in my notifications bar. 

I realize I let him go, when I don't feel pain when I talk about him. 

I realize I let him go, when his title changed from "my boyfriend" to "my ex". 

If you ask me how, here are my ways of moving on: 

1. Spend more time on yourself & Focus on other things instead of thinking about him/her.  

* I am learning Gu Zheng 古筝 (I have just started a year, FYI). So I spend more time to practice. When I feel bad, I go practice. It actually works to calm my mind everytime I play it. 

* Read. I read novel, I read a lot. I can sit there whole day just reading. Don't be surprised, I love reading since high school and people thought I am the outgoing girl who don't spend time reading.

* Watch drama. Find some series to watch. Watch some heart breaking Korean dramas and cry your heart out if you want. You can find the situation same as yours and cry until your tears dried out, then you will not cry anymore. lol. 

2. Go out & Know new people. 

Go out with friends, don't stuck yourself at house and keep thinking about the memories. Get out and know new people. I don't mean to ask you to know someone and get into a new relationship (you can if you want but it's not a good idea). Know someone new, you'll find something interesting out there. Expand your circle, your life is not just around one person. 

3. Talk about it until it doesn't hurt anymore. 

Some people will feel it's not comfortable to tell people about all your heartbreaks stories. Then perhaps you can find someone you trust and talk to him/her all about it. First time you talk about it, you might cry, you might feel very pain about it. Talk about it for the second, third or forth time, you can still cry. Talk and cry until you don't feel the pain anymore. When it doesn't hurt anymore, I think you are okay already. 

4. Travel. 

If your financial allows, go for a trip, near or far. Go for a trip, calm your mind. Have fun and enjoy the trip. The world out there have so many things for you to explore, don't waste your time ponder over your ex and your failed relationship. 

Sunflower Sea @ Hokkaido. 

I don't know if it works for everyone but that's the way I moved on... I guess. You might think that, yes la, talk of course easy, it's not easy to do it. I couldn't say I don't agree with it, I used to say that too. But when you finally did it, you'll feel, it's really that easy to let it go and move on. 

My Gu Zheng teacher was telling me this the other day: I thought you are the kind of people who would give up easily, I never thought you'll keep learning until now. Turns out you are really good, you are potential. You will be really great if you spend more time on practicing. & you let things go fast, you wouldn't keep it in your heart and sad over it for very long time. 

I'm flattered, it's a very big compliment for me. I don't know why people always think I am the kind who will give up easily. Perhaps because I am petite and I looked like a overly protected girl. But hey, I am stronger than you think I am! :) You'll be amazed by how capable I can be, don't underestimate me ;) 

Till then, 

xx

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My First Tarot Experience

I am not sure if much people know about this, but I just got to know it through a friend last year. There's a Tarot reading in Ipoh! I wanted to try it the moment I knew it but I haven't got the time and chance until recently. 

Before I went to this famous Tarot reading, I have a short experience with my friend's friend who is currently learning Tarot. He let me try it for free and he said don't take it serious, it's just a game and guidance for you when you're lost. Well, trust it or not, still depend on yourself. :) 

Wendy's Tarot is located at Menglembu, Ipoh. I made a booking before I went there because reservation is always prioritized. My friend promised to go with me but then she ffk me and told me to be YOLO and do it alone. *you know who you are* I was struggling should I go alone and I really ended up went there alone. 

I got no idea what should I ask to be honest. Previously, I was so lost in my relationship I wanted some guidance on it. On the day I went for the Tarot, I got no idea what am I going to ask! Then I decided to ask about my career since I am jobless right now. 

*If you read my previous post you'll know why & I kinda enjoy my jobless days now tbh..... 

So I asked about my career, what the Tarot said was kinda true actually. I was told to choose 12 cards in the beginning and I was also told that it's just a game and guidance. Don't take it too serious. I am kinda picky, not experienced enough... The card told me not to be too picky and just work whatever job I got even the pay is not as I expected. I did worked some freelance promoter job cause I need money. The card say I will have a chance to have an interview next month and get a job in June. Hope it's true *finger-crossed* 

After I finished the 12 cards I picked, I got to choose the remaining cards and ask whatever question I wanted to ask. I asked about friends, the card has a moon at the top. It means, I will have one girl friend, only one. It got me thinking about it nowadays, who will that be? 

Then I ask about my relationship, I picked a card King for my bb. Well, he's really like my King now. *blush* & I should listen to his advice more cause he is more wise, smart and experienced than me. In his eyes, I am so kind and soft. So true! Hahaha 

Then, we talked about family. My family is very harmony and happy. It also shows that my parents have confident in me that I am going to be independent, they don't have to worry much about me. The most important is, my parents are kinda happy that I am in a relationship. Hehehehe :) 

Overall, it is 80-90% true about my life. I would highly recommend this to my friends! I brought a friend over last week and she also think it's quite accurate! So guys, give it a try! It costs only RM30.00 which is very reasonable for 30 minutes, you can ask as many questions as you can with no limits within the 30 minutes. 

Below is the details of it: 

Wendy Tarot

Contact No:  016-5133522

Address: 3,Persiaran Kledang Timur 5 Bandar Baru 31450 Menglembu Ipoh 

Opening hours: Everyday (including Public Holidays) 11.00 a.m - 6.00 p.m  

Tarot Reading Cost: RM30 

Duration: 30 minutes

Reservation will be prioritize!

xxxx

Current Favorite Songs! 

Yes I am also a huge fans and obsess with Descendant of The Sun! I am listening to all the DOTS's OST on repeat while writing this. Hahaha. By the way, I really like this emoji on Twitter for JoongKi Oppa!

 

Till then, 

xx 

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Choices in Life.

Life is all about choices. 

Good or Bad; Right or Wrong; 

Your destiny will unfold according to the choices you make. 

We make choices everyday. The moment you wake up from sleep, you choose to open your eyes and start the day, or not? Then you choose what to wear, what to eat, how to go to work, etc etc. So many choices you have to make it in day. 

So yea, life is all about choices. 

I have just made one of the important decision in my life. To stay or to leave from the first job in my life? (Not really my very first job in life, cause I've been working part time since I was 15. This is the first real job after I stepped into the society after college.) 

Without much thoughts, I have made my decision. 

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LEAVE

 From the first month I joined the company, I left once. Perhaps because I am a fresh grads, & fresh grads always get bullied. I felt hard, people are pointing me for the mistake I've done. I felt so helpless, they criticize you for the mistake you've done but never help you. I trusted people easily, they promised won't tell anyone but when you turned around, people are talking about you. 

On the first month, I always went home crying, telling my boyf and family how much I hated this place and the people here. That time, they told me, just leave if you don't want to work here, but you have to understand the society is like this. If you got no income, I will take care of you (said both daddy and boyf) *blessed princess 

However, I stayed after the colleague convinced me. I can't say this is the worst decision I have ever made thou. To be honest, sometimes I really enjoyed working here with some really supportive colleagues. I've learnt a lot I can say, gained new experience. But what I have learnt most, the society, the people is so much more scarier than people in college. & yea, I still experienced some stupid high school drama here. 

Are you okay? Are you happy? Are you sad?

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I am okay, I am happy, I am not sad actually. 

I am really happy that I finally decided to leave. So do my family and my boyf, even my friends clap for me knowing I have finally made the decision. 

I don't know am I sad, but I went home and cried in my boyf's arms. 

I don't know why, I just feel so 委屈 and I burst into tears in front of him. But I was so tough when I told my friends about it. I didn't even shed a tear in front of others. Maybe boyf is right, I just want him to pamper, sayang me. 

Thank you this company, I have learnt a lot throughout the 7 months here. 

I don't regret my decision thou. This is gonna be one of the best decision I have made in my life. 

I made my choice and I won't regret it. 

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"这里是你的小暖窝, 要哭就回来这里哭."

"不管发生什么事情 我都会在你身边" 

不管听多少次，这都是最感动的一句话. 每一次听都会掉眼泪. :') 

感恩有你 ♥

Till then, 

xx 

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First page of 2014.

HAPPY NEW YEAR ! 

Well, I am writing this post because I think I should at least post something on this day. It has nothing to do with my blog thou I know. Hahaha. Just being lame. Ignore me. 

In 2013, many things have happened on me, to the people around me. It wasn't a good year or should I call it worst if compare to the previous? But I guess every end of the year, we all said it was bad. I know right, human. Lol. 

I personally think that 2013 is the year that I finally grown up. What I really mean is growing up, mentally. 

1. I learn how to care less (like finally). If you know me well, you should probably know how much I care about everything. Now, I know how to care less. I admit I am being selfish, because I need to protect myself. You can call me selfish I don't mind, because I am, I really am. If you are good to me, of course I will treat you the same or even better. If I found that you are just using me, sorry you mean nothing now. 

2. I know who are my true friends. I really know it this time. As we are growing up and no longer the girls in pinafore, we are separated into different places and enter to different phase of our life. If our friendships are strong enough, distance means nothing and I believe that. :) 

There might be arguments between us, but I believe that arguments will only make our friendship stronger and stronger. 

I can say, I have arguments with my friends,the closest one but in the end of the day, we are okay. & that what makes our friendship stronger. I know the bond between us is unbreakable. 

This time, I really learn who are my true friends. 

It might seems less to have only 2 things that I learnt (mentally / psychologically) this year, but it means a lot to me. It really does. With these two, I learnt how to deal with haters. I know how to not care what people talk about me and live my own life. I learn how to make myself happy. Its the biggest achievement I've got. & I am proud of myself. :) 

I think the most happening incident in 2013 will be Phantom Fest organized by my college mates & me. It was the most happening & successful event in 2013. You can read the post here: Phantom Fest by PR Students of Han Chiang College. 

This post is specially for the closest one in my life. You know who you are. :) 

There is it. Ciao ~ 

xoxo       

❄ Merry Christmas ❄

Annyeong ! 

I am finally backed to my blog after a month. Was too busy throughout the one month as my December was all about assignments & exams. 

Gonna have a brief update of this month. 

Short meet up with Joey after so so long. Missing Michelle! Never mind, we will find a time for the 3 of us to unite. 

I'm sorry for everything that has happened between us. I should be more understanding. Anyway, what's past is past. It makes the bond between us stronger, I believe in our friendship. Love you. 

Last presentation of the semester. I feel my assignment did not so good, but am glad to have my group mates! 

From left, Pipi, Me, Vionna & Suki.

Pretty group mates I have. FYI, missing Angel. /:  

The Unbreakable Public Relations Team.

On 7th & 8th December, Sisterhood had a trip to Penang. It was kinda rush and short trip. Not much pictures taken thou. 

Group pictures. 

Went back to Ipoh and straight went to Saloon for straightening my hair & prepared for cousin sister's pre-wedding dinner. 

Sunday was her big day. My sister was her brides maid and I am my sister's assistant. LOL 

The brides. 

 Wedding Dinner ! 

Cutest niece, Kei Kei. ;)

Tung's family, with cousins, niece & nephew from father's side.

I fell sick the next day. Fever, cough & flu all came. Wtf. -.- Worst study break. Always falling sick at the wrong time right before finals. Guess I am too stressed / tired throughout the past two weeks. I remembered I fell sick 2 weeks before SPM too. And it was serious. /: 

Anyhow I still went to KL with sis thou I was sick. I went to ask about my internship stuffs and took pretty pichas at Pavilion! They are too pwetty I can't not take pictures. Hehehe. 

Chuuuu ~ 

With Cony & Brown ! 

With Sis <3 td="">

Thanks my sis for the Christmas Nails. I love it ttm! 

After coming back from KL, I have no mood to study at all. /: Was procrastinating all the time & sleeping because I was feeling sick still until I backed to Penang. /: 

Finals is too torturing yet relaxing. LOL. Monday, Wednesday & Friday only have papers. Tuesday & Thursday were for procrastinating. I swear I feel like it's holiday already when Monday's paper ended. Dafuq. 

Went to Pitstop for brunch & study at Coffee Elements with Cold Cold & Manling on Tuesday. Will blog about it soon. :) 

Selfie taken while procrastinating. hahaha. Sorry I am not sorry. :p

That I-don't-want-to-study-face.

Finals finally ended and I purposely stay at Penang for few more days just to hang around with college people. As we'll all separated to different places for internship. /: 

Sunday went for brunch with ManLing, Ku & Jomien and then movie at Gurney. Elaine and her friends arrived in Penang at around 6 something and I brought them for dins at New Lane. 

It was Solstice festival so tong yuen is a must!! Best tong yuen in town I swear! 

 The next day went for a short hang out with my dearie Chia Chie. Finally we made it for a proper hang out after almost a year. Lolll. Went to Brown Pocket with her. It was not that nice as expected too. But can try thou it's a lil pricey. 

Triple Chocolate. Looks tempting, I know right.

Then went for dins with Elaine again @ Pulau Tikus Hawker Stalls for Lok Lok. Best lok lok in town too, I supposed. Haha. Went Straits Quay for a walk after dins. :) 

Group Picha, JS, Caryn, Denise, Elaine, Me & Xing-De.

Thou I only knew them for 3 days but undeniable they are all very friendly. :) 

BTW, am so sorry for my blur case and made you guys can't taste some food. /: 

The next day went to Heritage Area with them to hunt for food & street arts before heading back to Ipoh. 

If you realize, there are two pictures taken at the same place.. Haha. What to do? Tourist must take picture spot. LOL. And it was my favorite street art among all the other. :) 

Drove back to Ipoh on my own for the very first time. Thank God I didn't fall asleep. I moved everything back to Ipoh in my little Kancil hahhaa. *A round of applause to myself :P* 

Met up with my pretty babe Michelle right after I reached Ipoh because it was really hard for us to meet up. Thou it is a really short tea time but it feels good. :) Good catching up session with babe. Another good news is that I am moving to really near her in KL which means I can always meet up with her. Yayyy ! 

My Christmas Eve was well-spent with Kim Tan. Hahaha. Because I don't feel like going anywhere after travelling for whole day. Christmas was sleeping all day at home. Haha. 

"Christmas is my favorite festival, but it means nothing when there's no one to celebrate with." 

Belated Merry Christmas to all ! 

xoxo

Last year of being a 10+ teenage girls. Happy Birthday to Myself.

I know it's super duper triple late to update this, but I want to update about this most about what happened in the last two months. So yea, it's my 19th birthday celebration. 

It was a very hectic week during my birthday, everyone has lots of assignment to hand in, and me, myself got 3 assignments to hand in. I almost died, trust me. So tired & stress that I can die. Because of that, I really expected I wouldn't get anything from college people as I understand all of them are real busy & something else. Surprisingly they got me a cake after classes. Very very simple celebration, still, unexpected and kind of touch. Thanks. :') 

Ignore my chan face please. Lol

Second cake is from my family. I actually requested it myself. Loll. 

Third, celebrations with the colleagues together with Carmen. Can't deny it, they are the best colleagues I ever had. We just feel like a family. :) Always keeping in touch and have gathering once in a while.  

With another July's baby, Carmen.

Okay so now. Presenting you my sisterhood's members. And the celebration from them. Am really touched and happy, with you all. :) 

So this is their plan. They are planning it and when I asked for details no one was telling me what time I have to go there and where should I go. I kinda angry because no one tell my anything. Lolll. Am so sorry kay. 

Elaine actually told me she's not going and we will celebrate another time with Choy & Edward. And then! She suddenly pop out at my house outside and came to tie me up, covered up my eyes and kidnapped me to her car. LOLL. PeiYen said Hi when I was in her car. Hahaha. Then Elaine drove me out, say it'll be far and all. Suddenly, break! And said she got into accident then stopped and she went down to king sou. LOL. Taa-daaaa. I recognize your voice Yasmine Foong ! Hahaha. 

Like finally, they untied me. Get down the car, Mandy & the rest was holding the cake there. I am touched. Maybe I didn't show any expression, but yea. I really feel so touch. :') Thank youuu. :* 

Oh, so they celebrated for me @ Josephine. Upstairs some more. Hahaha. But, we all knows what we did to make a high-class place to so low-class. Hahaha. Shhhhh. Secrets between us all. ;) *wink wink

   

Group picture is always a must! 

Love the balloon. :D

Thank you my Queen for everything. :)

Thank you EnLi for coming, I know you will definitely come even you're sick. :)

Thank you PeiYen, I know you choose the present. ;) 

Chingy. Like every time we got birthday celebration you never showed up but you did this time.
Thank you & I appreciate so much. & the birthday wishes. Hehe

Thank You SookWah for coming thou we are not really close. Hehe

Thank you TengFong :D

Another Group Pictures !

Thank you for being crazy Yasmine. Hahaha.

Thank you Melissa. 

Thank you ElaineChen, my partner in crime.
 I know you don't drive at night. ;)

Birthday pressie from the sisterhood & Elaine.
I really love the balloon! 

Last onee ! Celebration by Elaine, Choy & Edward @ Michalengelo's Pizza. No birthday cake but pizza! Enjoyed it too! Hehe 

Thank you Choy, the boss of the night. 

Since 13-years-old & still counting. 

I appreciate everything you guys have done for me so much! I feel like I am a princess that night. Hehe. Really appreciate it & am really touched. So glad to have all of you in my life. :')

Love y'all to the max ! :* 

Yes, I have 4 cakes in total for my birthday & it's never enough for me. Hahaha. I just love desserts so damn much. 

Not to forget to mention this! I was sick during my birthday that few days. Having red dots all over my body & so itchy. My parents were so so so worried that they asked me to consult doctor when I was in Penang & backed in Ipoh. TWICE! When I consulted the doctor in Ipoh, he wrote me a letter to go to the emergency clinic in hospital. *I don't know what it calls. Lol* I was so panic & scared that I have to stay in the hospital. I didn't want to missed the celebrations with the sisterhood. And Thanks God! Nothing happened. Definitely the best birthday present ever! If you ever get to the hospital & have blood test & etc etc you will know how I feel. So damn scared seriously. 

That's all for my birthday post. :) 

Ciao ~ 

xoxo