To the one who loves too much.

"It's okay to love too much. 

It's okay."

Love, is a very magical thing. 

You met someone, you started having feelings, you fell in love, and you cannot fall out of love. 

Your heart breaks, you tried to fix, you get tired, and finally you gave up. 

Until you met someone else again, and the cycle repeat again until you finally found someone who will walk through the end with you. 

It hurts, when you love too much and the other half isn't. 

You just keep trying and trying, hoping that one day he/she will finally realize and appreciate your love. 

Some are lucky when the love started being appreciated, some are not. 

When the love is not appreciated, and the person foresee all the things you have did for him/her. 

It hurts. 

It hurts as fuck!

I know how bad it feels but I also know how good it feels when he/she show a little bit of appreciation. 

A simple "I Love You" could mean so so much to someone who love you unconditionally, so why not say it just to make someone feels better? Why do you want to be so selfish?

But of course, mean it when you said it. 

In this century, saying "I Love You" seems to be so easy yet people still believe in such words. 

Okay, I know what I just write might be contradicting, but still action speaks louder than words. 

DO SOMETHING to show your love, to show your appreciation. 

A smile, a hug, is also a sign of showing your love and care.

Not everyone is materialistic, people who love you, just need your love and care. 

That's all we asked for. 

It's not hard, yet it's not easy to do it. 

All we need, is for our love to be appreciated. 

To the one who loves too much. 

It's okay. 

It's okay to love with all your heart. 

It's okay to do everything for the one you love. 

It's okay to love even when no one understands you. 

It's okay to love even it's not appreciated. 

You'll be hurt, you'll cry over it again and again. 

You'll have endless sleepless night thinking about it. 

But it's okay, your love will be appreciated by someone who worth it. 

Even if it takes time, even you will have to go through heart breaks.  

To the one who loves too much. 

Remember, you did not do anything wrong for loving too much. 

You just love too much, because you know how to appreciate. 

Someday, someone will appreciate you and love you the way you deserve, just like how you love him/her. 

不曾相見亦無可戀，

不曾相知亦無可思，

不曾相伴亦無可離，

不曾相惜亦無可憶，

不曾相愛亦無可棄，

不曾相對亦無可隨，

相見，不如不見.

I was watching Scarlet Heart and I came across this poet. It's just so beautiful yet so heart breaking. 

Scarlet Heart was okay but China version is so much better! 

Must watch! 

Till then, 

xx

❄

《六弄咖啡馆》：远距离恋爱

几年前经由朋友介绍，读了这本小说。当时把小说看完后，哭的稀里哗啦。

几年后得知即将开拍电影·，好期待。等了那么久，上个星期终于去看了电影，还是哭的稀里哗啦。 

然后再重新把小说看了一篇，还是大爱这本小说，这部电影。虽然电影有些差评，可是我不是电影达人，我纯粹是喜欢剧情，喜欢那个故事。只能说，我很喜欢 很喜欢 很喜欢。（重要的事情要说三遍!!!)

我是一个很感性的人。我看电影会哭，看电视剧会哭，连看小说也会哭。

我很爱哭，我承认。 

故事大纲我不必解释，看预告片就知道了。

当电影播放到放烟火的时候，我当时在想，不可能结局是那么平静美好的，在我的印象中，结局很悲哀。结果，如我所料，结局很悲哀。我还是哭了。电影结束，回家的路上，我的情绪久久无法平复。我不懂为什么，可能我真的太容易哭了。或者说，我太理解那种感受了。 

『爱情不会因为距离而脆弱，人才会』

人有时候真的很脆弱，脆弱的自己想象不到。可是，能有多少个人能够承认自己的脆弱？我承认我脆弱，可是在一次又一次的熬过了一段难熬的时间后，我都会跟自己说，"原来我比想象中坚强。" 或者我没经历过小绿那样的伤痛，失去了心蕊，失去了母亲的痛。我在想，如果那个人是我，或许我也会选择跟小绿一样的结局。我没经历过，我不懂我可以有多坚强。 

曾经谈过一场不算恋爱的远距离恋爱。却在4个月后，分手了。我提出的分手。

为什么是不算恋爱的恋爱？因为我们在距离展开后才开始的恋爱。从没有体会过真正的恋爱。没牵过手，没拥抱过，没有看电影吃饭的约会。只有每天晚上的Skype。当时网路并不盛行，没有智能手机，长途电话太贵了。唯一能相处的时间只剩下每天晚上隔着电脑荧幕的视频聊天。倒霉的时候，网路不好，只能够靠Facebook Messenger聊天。能够维持4个月，还有之前暧昧时的另外4个月。算很不错了，对我这个那么没安全感，那么需要陪伴的人来说。哈哈。 

我深深地体会到这句话：人才会因为距离很脆弱。只因我是那个人。

『我与你同在』 小绿

『你不在』 心蕊

很多人会觉得心蕊这样对小绿说很残忍。但这却是铁一般的事实。

女生其实很希望当她有事的时候男友会在他身边陪着她。但是她明白到距离的关系，他不能第一时间赶到。很多时候，其实蛮难受的。

心蕊被打枪钱包，小绿感到的时候已经过了几天。那时候的心蕊只是需要小绿静静的陪着她，可是小绿不明白。或是心蕊当时告诉小绿她的想法结局就会不一样了，可是她没有。就这样，把距离又拉远了一点点。

我记得有一次，我刚到槟城念书。晚上和朋友出去逛街夜了，人生路不熟的我们，搭错了巴士，去到了一个不认识的地方，重新搭过巴士。结果久久等不到巴士，赶不及回家跟他聊天，唯有传简讯给他跟他说。过了很久，他的一个女生朋友（在马来西亚的）打电话来问我还好吗，说他很担心。当时确实有点感动，感受得到他的担心。可是，当时我最需要的是很想他可以出现在我面前，带我回家。 

『你不在』，对我来说，是这样的。或许对心蕊来说，还有他们之间的想法的差距。 心蕊在为未来打算，她想要小绿陪她去西雅图，一起去成长，但是小绿不明白。他们之间的距离，又拉远了一点点。 

『人長大了，就會改變；而你..好像忘了長大了。』

『如果我們今天一起成長，結果就會不一樣吧。』

『我們之間的距離，從來就不是三百六十公里的差距。

而是我和你，個性、思想上的差距。』李心蕊说。

『拉不近的遠距離，解不開的未知數。』

我很庆幸，我跟他现在是好朋友。在分开后的几个月里，他有找我。而我却狠下心来，让他放下我。分开的原因不是因为我遇见了另一个人，只是单纯的因为彼此在忙碌着各自的大学生活，联络少了，感情淡了。好几次想要告诉他，我不开心想要他陪我聊天，可是他总忙着去打工。过后，想想都已经那么少时间联络了，就不要浪费时间去不开心吧。结果，这样就拉开我们的距离了。 

我们不是分隔台北和高雄，而是台湾和马来西亚。当时只是学生的我们，存钱买飞机票根本就是很难的事情。所以，根本连见面的机会都没有。

在别人写的影评里，看到了这句话，用在我身上，很贴切：

『說好聽點，或許是出於被一個自己不愛的人所愛而產生的罪惡感，但實際上，或許只是厭惡自己竟不愛那麼一個愛自己的人並為此感到彆扭。』

渐渐的他不找我了，在我最后说了一些狠话后，他几乎把我所有的联络方式都删了。大概过了两年，他联络回我了，他交了新的女朋友。我很替他开心，同时很内疚我当初那样对他。 我曾经还很小心眼的以为他加我Facebook是为了报复，向我炫耀他有女朋友了。哈哈。我真的太小气了。结果人家根本就没有啦。然后我们聊天的时候，我一直跟他说我对他很愧疚，每次想起他都很内疚，他都说不用再内疚了，他理解也从来没怪我。在这些对话重复了N次后，我终于把这份内疚放下了。

『喜歡是一種能力，被喜歡是一種天賦。 

被喜歡是一件很幸福的事，只是結果往往不如預期』

我不明白我有什么天赋，能让一个人喜欢那么久，还要那么那么的喜欢。可是，我想说现在想起来，觉得我很幸福。 谢谢你，曾经那么的喜欢我。很感恩，你现在会是我的好朋友。

我经不起远距离恋爱。我太需要安全感了，需要一个时时刻刻陪在我身边的人。
所以，我不会再谈远距离恋爱了。因为真的很难熬。 

我很羡慕小绿跟阿智的友情。阿智真的对小绿很好。帮他完成了他的心愿。读着小绿写给阿智的遗书，我哭了。真的很心酸。人，其实真的很脆弱。 

我在想，现实生活中，我会有哪一个朋友在我死後依然義無反顧地替我完成心願呢？

『人生，為什麼那麼難？』

「六弄人生：

人生，像走在一條小巷中，每一弄都可能是另一個出口，也可能是一條死胡同。

生在一個與一般人不同的家庭中，是我人生的第一弄；

愛上了妳，是我人生的第二弄；

註定般的三百六十公里，是我人生的第三弄；

失去了妳，是我人生的第四弄；

母親的逝去，是我人生的第五弄；

在這五弄裡，我看不見所謂的出口，出現在我面前的，盡是死胡同。

該是結束的時候了，該是說再見的時候了，

再見，世界，是我人生的第六弄。」

Till then, 

xx

❄

#GOMO : 2D1N Food Trip to KL

Since there were few days of continuous holiday for 5 days (I actually took one day unpaid leave to make it a long holiday), boyf and I decided to go Kuala Lumpur for some nice food. It was also my birthday on the previous day so I also called it as my birthday getaway. Hehehe. 

We depart early in the morning so that we can have brunch once we arrived. Not a breakfast person (at breakfast time) so once we woke up we departed. We arrived around 11am and we decided to go Pavilion area first as our check-in time is 2pm. 

First stop, Tous Les Jours. 

We have a quick breakfast there. I have to say their pastry are so so so awesome! I swear can have it everyday if the shop is just next to my house. 

Smoked Salmon & some Puff Pastry. 

We then headed to Pavilion to walk a while. I manage to got something from Innifree store (I guess its newly opened) and got a membership. I am always a fans of Korean Beauty / Skin Care Products especially Nature Republic and Innisfree is my new favorite. 

Tips: All you need is to purchase anything from the store and you can signup for membership. Purchase up to RM30 and they will give you a free gift. Find out more from their Facebook Page! 

Benefit of being an Innisfree member. This is from the email I get after I signed up. 

At about 1pm, we left Pavilion to go to Bandar Sunway to check-in to our hotel. Our stay was at Time Hotel Bandar Sunway. Don't expect too much as it is a budget hotel and it was good enough for one-night-stay. You can consider this hotel if you are planning to go KL for a budget short trip.

After check-in and left our luggage in our room, we checked-in at Sunway Pyramid! The first thing I wanted to do was to find llao llao. If you are a fans of Froyo, this is like the best among all I've tried! There was really long queue at the stall but it's worth the wait. Hehe. 

Signature.

After some shopping session, we are quite hungry as we only have brunch earlier without proper meal. So we left to Mont Kiara for dinner. Guess what's for dinner? 

Taa-daaaa !! 

GOGI KING 

There were so many people sharing about this Korean BBQ Restaurant because of the cheeseeee BBQ. We were lucky to be there at around 6+, there was only 2-3 tables left. We managed to grab a seat by the time we arrived. A while later, the restaurant was fully seated and there were people queuing for a table outside. 

I am not going to explain much, so let the pictures do the talking! 

Excited face! Can't wait to feast! 

Soju - RM 18.00 each

Cheers ! 

Kimchi Stew - RM 20.00

Dinner is served! 

Two kinds of meat + Octopus - RM 65.00

Look at the cheeseeeee!
Extra Cheese - RM 8.00

The night was still young after dinner. Our last destination was the famous tourist spot - Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre (KLCC). 

We got no idea why we went there but we just went. We watched the fountain show like the rest of the tourists. 

We also found Godiva for their signature ice-cream! It was so so so good despite it's expensive price. It's so worth the price seriously. The ice-cream is soooo smooth, so much better than any ice-cream I've had. 

We took about an hour plus to travel back to hotel because we were lost. It was a really tiring day. So I need to sleep until I automatically wake up the next day. It's a relaxing trip, not any trip that you have to follow up with schedule. So, it's okay to sleep as much as you want.  

Day 2. 

Woke up by boyf because we need to check-out at 11am. So we prepared and left for brunch at Publika. My friend recommended to try out Red Beanbag. Unfortunately, it was closed for several days. We ended up went to Fahrenheit 600°. I like the environment there, so cozy so comfortable. 

They serve good coffee and chocolate. I ordered Chocolate and boyf ordered Mocha. The chocolate is so rich and it's not too sweet. The breakfast are good too. I loveeee breakfast like this. I can eat breakfast at dinner time. It would be so good to have restaurant/cafes to serve breakfast 24 hours. I will love the restaurant/cafes.

Hot Chocolate

Mocha with a description card. 

Smoked salmon with avocado spread.
(I forgot the name and price) 

Breakfast which I forgot the name and price.

Boyf took so many nice pictures for me. I have to highlight this cause he always take ugly photos of me. Big applause for BB this time! Hehe 

@ Flirting Point 

Big love to this picture! 

We went to Mid Valley after that and we couldn't eat anything more as we were still full from brunch. 

Last stop - Tous Les Jours @ Empire Damansara Mall. 

Yes, we were back at this cafe again because we needed to grab a quick bite before we left for Ipoh, just in case we are hungry on the way back. 

Secretly hoping that it will have a branch in Ipoh so I can visit it all the time. 

The blueberry with cream cheese pastry is my favorite! 

Goodbye KL! Goodbye Holiday! 

There end my short getaway food trip to KL! 

In case you are wondering what is GOMO, it means "Going Out More Often". It's about to move away from materialism, and towards more experientialism! 

People nowadays seems to prefer to stay at home watch dramas, Netflix, Chill etc instead of going out. 

If going for an oversea trip is too pricey for you, why not choose a short trip to the state nearby? It could be a good idea for a relaxing weekend to spend with your friends, family and loved one too. ;) 

Lastly, hope you enjoyed this short video of my trip! 

Thanks to my best friend who edited this for me! 

Till then, 

xx

❄

Princess Turned 22.

"I don't know about you, but I'm feelin' 22. Everything will be alright if you keep me next to you." 

I bet everyone who are turning 22 this year will probably post this lyrics from the song 22 by Taylor Swift. Good job Tay. I planned on writing this as my Instagram caption too, but I didn't in the end cause I saw a friend posted it just one week before mine. 

I officially turned 22 on 5th July 2016. 

Unlike previous years, I have all my girlfriends to have a dinner and celebrated with me. This year is slightly different, no girlfriends-dinner as everyone is apart from each other. However, I spent the day with boyfriend. Thanks BB ❤

Kae Xin brought me for an advanced birthday dinner @ Maiale Japanese Italian Restaurant. 

Thanks Bae ❤ 

*Kae Xin's Appreciation Post* 

We've known each other for less than 2 years but we clicked so well with each other & we shared the same middle name. Haha. Thank you for being here with me all these while. Through thick and thin. Listening to all my problems and share my happiness. I don't know will our friendship fade away someday in the future but I hope it lasts as long as it can. Love you bae ❤

Hopefully we can make one of our Two-Pairs-Trip or Girls-Trip success! 

Highly recommended Maiale Japanese Italian Restaurant for Candle-Light Dinner with your partner or girlfriends. It served reasonable and affordable price for fine dining in Ipoh. The food and environment is good. Tiramisu dessert is a must to order, I can say it's the best in town! 

Last year BB brought me to KL on my birthday but without anything. By anything I mean cake, card, present or flower.... I literally complaint for the whole year and I reminded him for N times 1 month before my birthday this year. Demanding girlfriend, I know, 'cause I am the princess. Haha. 

To be honest, even though I have reminded him for N times, I never expect much cause I know him. Lol. Well, he successfully surprised me when he appeared in my house's living room with a bouquet of flower before the time we were supposed to meet. Okay, I thought that's all was his surprised and I was wrong until we got back to his house. He prepared cake too! 

It's really out of my expectation thou. 

Thanks for everything that you did BB. Love you to the moon and back ❤❤❤

Blessed birthday to have you by my side ❤

Growing Up in My 20s 

If you have known me for a very long time, you know I have had a dramatic life and still my life is very dramatic. Last year, I said that I have changed a lot and yes, I am still growing up & realizing a lot of things that I (perhaps) should've know earlier. 

The amount of friends is not equal to the quality of friends. I don't have my phone and Facebook sending me notifications of people sending me birthday wishes. I have friends who I expected them to remember my birthday and actually they forgot as well as friends who don't expect them to wish me sending me birthday messages. I appreciate everyone who wished me, thank you. :) 

This is life. 

I learnt who is my true friends who will really be there for me when I needed them. I understand that people have their own things to deal with, & can't be there for me all the time. To me, priority matters too. If you're important to me, no matter what am I doing, if you need me and the situation allows, I am just one call away. 

I don't force things anymore. Things that doesn't work out, I won't try anymore. It's tiring to keep trying when there's no return. If it's meant to be, it will be. I might be selfish to say this way but I have to. I know it's my fault for not listening to other's advice and push people who care about me away. I understand so I don't deserve the love and care from these people anymore. It's the life I've chosen. 

Do I regret? Yes, sometimes I do regret and missed those good ol' times. But I chose this, so I have to bare with it. We can't go back to how we used to be anymore, things changed, no matter what you did, it will never go back. You & I, are not the people we used to know anymore. 

We don't share the same life, the same circle anymore; we don't create new memory together anymore. We are living our life, on our own, since then. Our life is parallel since then, I can never see a crossing point in near future. 

Life goes on. 

People come and go, no one will be in your life forever. Friends are temporary, but feeling & memories stay forever. Just appreciate people who are with you now before they are gone. 

Happy 22nd Birthday To Me. 

#PrincessTurned22

Till then, 

xx

❄

那些BB为我做的小事 ❤

几天前就好想要写这篇文章了，可是却一直拖一直拖........ 

还记得上个星期我来月经，好不舒服，女生都知道的，那种痛苦。就跟BB撒娇了。晚上的时候，他突然跟我说过来找我。我心想，你到底怎么啦，我不舒服 还要我到处去。结果一上车，他就递给我一个水瓶。是他亲手煲的红枣茶。那一刻，好感动。他说：我放工回到家就立刻冲凉吃饭，煲好了就拿来给你了。他还带我去Starbucks喝热可可让我暖肚子。

那一天，我真的好感动。心里在想，我到底做了什么好事，能有一个那么疼爱我的男朋友。那一刻，真的好想跟他说，BB我爱死你了❤ 

就是这样，我决定了要写一篇blog去记住所有BB为我做的小事 ❤ 

P/S: 以下内容，会甜到腻噢! 

1. 我很爱撒娇。我喜欢他抱着我睡，不然就会失眠了。虽然每一次都说手很酸，但是总是会抱着我、让我枕着到我睡着了才把手松开。早上起来的时候，也会抱抱我。有一次我没有跟他一起睡，做噩梦了，他就跟我说：别去记着，就没事了。有我抱着你睡，你就可以安心的睡了。

"睡前吻你，半夜抱你，醒来有你" -- 这种就是我想要的简单的幸福。

2.  每个星期日，他总会比我早起，给我做早餐，然后把我叫醒。最幸福的事，莫过于醒来就有早餐吃。虽然他每次都说我不给他做早餐，但是他每次都比我早起啊。好吧，答应你，我一定会给你做早餐的啦。（我做过一次，他却一直嫌弃!) 

3. 有一次，他要早起出门，而我就在家睡到自然醒等他回来。睡到朦朦胧胧中，听到有声音，就睁开眼看看。结果看他用手机的电筒在找东西。问他为什么不开灯就说没关系。结果不久后又让我看到一次他不开灯换衣，因为我在睡。那一刻我就知道，他应该是不要弄醒我所以不开灯。因为每一次他开灯我就会起身了。*我真的觉得你很可爱* 

4. 他很喜欢逗我。我想，弄我生气应该是他的乐趣。他总是喜欢跟我说，“我跟别的女生出去噢。我吃了那个再跟你说好不好吃，不好吃就不用带你去了。” 可是，最后那个“别的女生”总是我。但是我依然每次都会生气，然后又哭笑不得。真的好白痴。 

5. 我吃东西超慢。是超。级。慢。可是他每次都会看着我，等我吃完。好喜欢他看着我的眼神。看着我，微笑。说我为什么吃那么慢，又吃那么少，像小猫吃东西那样，下次给你吃猫粮就好了。他看着我的眼神，有着满满的爱意，好喜欢。 

6. 他总说我是他的小猫。他喜欢像摸小猫那样摸我的下巴。我好喜欢他在驾车的时候牵着我的手，有时候还会用他大大的手掌，包着我那小小的脸颊。大手牵小手，就是温暖 ❤

7. 他曾说过一个故事：一个男人给你1,000，你觉得很开心 觉得他愿意花钱在你身上。另一个男人，只可以给你90，你嫌弃他不爱你、不肯花钱在你身上。但是你不知道，第一个男人他有10,000，却只给了你1/10；而第二个男人，他只有100，却把9/10都给你了。谁才是爱你的那个？ 第二个男人，把他所能给你都给你了，你却不会珍惜。

而他，就是第二种男人。BB, 我很珍惜你，我知道你对我的好我的付出，我要求不多，只要你在我身边就好了 ❤ 

8. 以前他都不陪我拍大头贴。可是他竟然跟我拍大头贴了！他跟我拍大头贴了！他跟我拍大头贴了！*重要的事要说3遍！* 我很开心，真的很开心。他说我热爱那个照片。对啊，情侣就是要拍大头贴的。#RelationshipGoal 我还把照片放手机wallpaper了，你就知道我多喜欢。

他放了两个蜜蜂，因为 甜蜜蜜 ❤

9. 或许我在外面本来没有很坚强，但是我在他面前，就真的真的很懦弱。记得上次我遇到了一些事情，受了委屈，在朋友面前不停的骂，很生气；结果我一见到他，眼泪就不争气的不停的掉。我也不懂为什么会这样明明就很生气啊。他说：“你看到我，要嗲我，要撒娇就哭了。没关系啦，这里是你的小暖窝，有什么事，就到我这里来哭，有我在。” 

我觉得，全世界最温暖，最感动的一句话就是 “有我在”。每一次他说，我都会感动得掉眼泪。当我哭了，他就会放下手上的东西，抱着我，对我说有他在。 

10. 如果要用几个字形容他对我的爱，那一定会是：满嘴的嫌弃，满满的爱。 

他总是嫌弃我，说我不美，没身材（要借用周冬雨的台词了，我22岁，却有着12岁的身材），说我头发臭臭的（因为我没洗头，但是就算我洗了他还是说臭！明明就没有！），又笨笨的。好多嫌弃的话。可是我知道他是爱我的，跟我逗着玩。如果我真的那么的差，为什么你还爱我？

记得他说过，如果不要你，早就不要你了。现在还是在你身边，因为我懂你的好 ❤ 

11. 我喜欢躺在沙发看戏，躺在床上玩电话，他总是会骂我。因为他说这样对眼睛不好，对腰骨也不好。要坐着，不可以躺着。

喜欢你关心着我 ❤ 

12. 女生的天性就是喜欢买这个买那个。他就会劝我不要买那么多，要把钱存起来。再加上我现在失业了，更不应该乱花钱。

喜欢你管着我 ❤ 

13. 我喜欢吃零食，他总不让我买。说对身体没有营养，而且浪费钱。虽然这样说啦，可是他有时候还是会买给我吃。尤其是会买薯条给我吃！还会亲自炸给我吃。因为我大爱薯条！有好几次，半夜了还带我去McDonald吃薯条。我们也好喜欢去McDonald 约会。 有一次我饿了，他还在半夜1点给我煮泡面，陪我吃完才睡觉。

记得的暂时是这么多了，应该不止吧。可是这样我已经觉得很幸福了。能够拥有一个在你说一声“想你” 就出现在你面前的人，我已经很知足了。

我不需要轰轰烈烈的爱情，我要的是这些简简单单的幸福。

别人说，一个男人爱你的最高境界就是把你当女儿养。我已经找到了，我不想失去，我一直都好好珍惜着这么一个你。可能有时候，一直照顾着我很累，那没关系，你累了就换我照顾你。爱情就是要两个人去努力，去经营，去建立，去迁就，去忍让，才可以一直幸福的走下去。

我永远都那么爱你
只要你一直爱我，我必定不离不弃 ❤  

Till then, 

xx

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